Five Steps For a Graceful, Spiritual Journey

The spiritual path is beautiful, ugly, profound andstrange, negative, dysfunctional, needy, arrogant,
ordinary all at once. It comes full of elusiveselfish, 'human' parts of myself and I am NOT
aspirations, emotional dramas, transcendent blissanywhere near the 100th step. Acknowledging this
and everything else in between - and frankly, itwas a HUGE relief. I could stop pretending to be
can sometimes feel like living in a terrifying hell, orperfect and really relax and be me - as I am now.
in a pristine heaven, or at other times just simplyA beautiful expression that affected my life was
boring and pointless.'Whatever you are, however you are, you belong
Learning the hard wayto Me'. It almost brings me to tears each time I
Looking back at my younger self, I wish I knewthink about it.
what I know now. It would have been soIt was in this gentle, accepting place, that I began
liberating to be able to give myself a few wordsto really move forward on my spiritual journey.
of support and guidance on the biggest journeyBefore that realization I had what is often termed
of my life. At that time, I had no idea what was'spiritual ego'. I was under the impression that
ahead (although I had outrageous expectationsbecause I was aware of these wonderful higher
and projections, the kind that only come from thestates of consciousness, and other people were
fearlessness of a young person). And, like mostnot aware of them, that I was actually at a
people, I stumbled through life, falling down,higher state of consciousness than other people.
getting up again and learning about life the "hardHmmm... Have you ever seen 'spiritual people'
way".doing things so far removed from what they
The reason I'm writing this is to share some myknow and teach it's shocking? Have you ever
own experiences of over 13 years of spiritualnoticed those wonderful 'ordinary' happy and
development and teaching, in the hope that youramazing beings that don't engage in formal spiritual
journey can be as EASY, enjoyable and smoothpractice and yet are so lovable and beautiful?
as possible. It would have been wonderful to goI have come to appreciate that many people who
back and meet myself during those years andhave 'no idea about spiritual things' at all, can
give myself this article... I wonder how I wouldactually have far higher states of consciousness,
have responded - or even if I would havespiritual life and values than many staunch spiritual
understood or listened?aspirants. They just live it - rather than talk about
Of course none of us can go back to guide ourit. The spiritual ego is based on form being 'right'
younger selves, and I was destined to learn theor 'better' - not on the soul, the heart, the
way I did so I know what I do now. It is myintention and motivation.
heart-felt intention that you may learn from myYet again, this humbling realization of where we
'mis-takes' and experiences to enjoy eachare NOW allows us to move on to the third step.
moment along your unique journey as you openWe all have this 'spiritual ego' to some degree... let
new doors to a more magical existence. I honorus be aware and release it.
and respect you deeply - whoever you are andSTEP 3 - Self Love and Healing
wherever you are.I have found the third step is deeply connected
What I am about to share with you is ato the second step. Step 3 is all about self-love
massively condensed version of an epicand healing. It surprises me how many people on
experience of spiritual evolution (one that I am stilla spiritual path hate themselves and seem to
in the process of, by the way), and I have donededicate very little time to their own healing.
my best to highlight some of the main points. ThisIn many ways, all spiritual work is healing work:
is by no means a comprehensive account of theThink about it. We are healing the soul, the spirit.
journey - I hope you enjoy it and take awayIn order to heal the soul we need to understand
some of the lessons that have been priceless towhat the soul is (the first step), then accept
me.where we are right now (step 2). Finally we can
All paths lead to the same place...have a good look at how wounded we are. Then
Having dealt with large numbers of people andby developing compassion for ourselves we can
seen them struggle with some of the samebegin the healing process. Gentle, gentle, gentle.
problems in their lives that I have, I have comeSadly, the vast majority of spiritual paths involve
to appreciate that in many, many ways we are allso much discipline and such high standards that
alike. We will experience many of the same thingsthe healing work doesn't really get much attention.
along our journies, no matter where we begin.Attention often goes to what is wrong, what is
This is good news! It means we are NOT alonenot good enough, what needs to be changed.
and we can learn from each others' experiences.Discipline, Discipline, Discipline and all along the
If we can accept a few simple truths aboutwounded soul just needs gentle, healing
ourselves, life, and the limitations of the 'ego', wecompassion. When we are wounded, we need the
can make significant spiritual progress in a shortstick to help us move, not to bash us around the
amount of time.head when we fall down!
On the other hand, I have seen so many peopleFor me, simply accepting that I am on the first
(including myself) make the journey infinitely morestep and that in order to go to the second step I
challenging than is necessary because of notneed to choose to allow the process to be as
knowing the process they are likely to go through.gentle and calm as possible, has enabled a
Let's face it, walking blind hurts. Why make thingstremendous amount of healing to occur. Gentle,
harder than we need to? Once we know thegentle, gentle. Sleep well. Relax. My aim was to
process, we can relax and enjoy the ride. Howtake things easy, relax, move slowly and calmly,
does that feel?understand and learn, take things at my own
The simple steps to spiritual growthpace and be happy with myself as I am. The
Despite our similarities, each of us is guaranteedprocess of doing less, feeling into things, being
to have our own unique experience and journeysubtle and gentle in all ways... baths, extra rest,
because we are unique beings. But within thiswalks in nature, comfort, taking time to read,
variety, I have found there are 5 main steps orspeaking kindly to myself... Ahhh.... Mmm...
chapters we are all very likely to encounterDoesn't that sound lovely?
somewhere along the way. By knowing these fiveWhen I have accepted deeply that I am not the
steps we will save ourselves a lot of unnecessary100th step, I am at the first step -- then I can
struggle -- and furthermore, if we can approachappreciate and love myself for being at the first
these steps in the order mentioned here, we arestep and move to the next steps. Little by little,
likely to progress rapidly and with more ease.appreciating each small change, giving credit and
Step 0 - The Magic MOMENT!appreciation for each new progression. Not
Before we even begin on our spiritual path (orexpecting anything, just calmly moving ahead.
whatever you want to call it) there is usually aThis gentleness takes so much pressure and pain
moment where we know deep within 'somethingout of the journey, because it is genuine, it is real
needs to change'. This is the magic momentand it is sustainable. Starting from an intense
where a calling deep within inspires us to step100m sprint, we move away from the race
away from our lives as they are today andmindset and choose to go on a beautiful, soft
discover something deeper, something grander,journey into the misty mountains... enjoying the
richer and more magical. At this point, we oftenscenes and smelling the flowers along the way.
do not know where to look or what to do - butThis sustainable attitude allows the path to unfold
the Intention to change drives us forward andin a graceful and beautiful way rather than in a
away from the old into an unknown adventure.forced and unnatural way. I know so many people
The Wake-Up Call: Some people have an accidentwho came to a spiritual path, gave up all their
or near-death experience where they are veryhobbies, music collection, clothes... only to freak
suddenly confronted with a new reality. Othersout years later and get it all back again - and feel
have a deep knowing since childhood thatguilty about it.
something is wrong with the world and want toOnce we have accepted and learned to love
experience what 'once was' or what 'life is meantourselves as we are, what we are and where we
to be like' - but are not sure how until somethingare, then we can move on to the fourth step.
happens that turns a feeling into a new way ofSTEP 4 - Doing what is Good for the Soul: Gaining
living. This silent knowing of a different way ofPower
being, long forgotten, becomes activated. OthersIn the fourth step we bring our awareness back
have a break up, death or illness that inspiresto the enticing first step where we learned about
them to search for a new direction; and othershigher states of consciousness and the new ways
still are introduced to new awareness by a friendof being.
or family member at the 'right time' - and chooseHaving a foundation of gentle growth and
to begin the path themselves.progression, we can calmly and realistically absorb
The magical moment signifies the end of the oldmore of the spiritual practices and begin to apply
and the beginning of the new. The door is justand experience the meditations, the
opening and the choice has been made to gocontemplations and other practices in a real,
through and discover what is held on the otherintegrated and meaningful way. If we try to
side. It is exciting and scary. Do you rememberbypass the previous steps, while we may be
your magic moment? Are you ready to gositting for meditation, in reality we are just fighting
deeper?with our minds and trying to look good most the
STEP 1 - Understanding a New Realitytime. The meditation is not enjoyable or satisfying
After making the decision to find out what is onand empowering.
the other side of the door, the first step towardsIn the fourth step, meditation is a JOY and brings
spiritual growth often involves a thirst fortremendous nourishment and power. We do it all
understanding. This often involves a mentalthe time, especially in our private moments - we
understanding of a new paradigm. Here we havehave no need for show or force.
the 'theory' step.Having done the previous three steps we are
I remember when I had my magical momentnow in a position to start moving up the staircase
after retuning from Africa. I felt depressed andwith focus, dedication, and self-love. At this point
disillusioned with life and was ready for somethingwe have gathered our energy, have taken stock
new. I wanted to know what was behind theof where things are and what is really going on.
door and became interested in discovering whatThis is the place where things can start setting in
was going on. It was at this point that I was firstvery deeply and significant progress can be made
introduced to spiritual concepts and the door wasover weeks, months and years.
opened. Imbued with a new thirst for truth andI've personally tried to do this step without doing
delighted with the possibility and hope that thisthe other two steps and wasted years in denial
knowledge contained, I felt enlightened. As Iand spiritual ego land.
learned of the Soul, The Divine, Karma etc. it feltThis part of our journey is where most of our
as if I had discovered a whole new world in mytime is spent and, unlike the other steps, I have
backyard. I was excited with a new kind offound in step four meaningful discipline,
excitement - a soul excitement I have neverconcentration, and determination. These things
experienced before. It was yummy! Simplyhave been totally critical and have kept me going.
becoming aware that there was a different wayIf I am feeling tired, I may still take a rest rather
of seeing, a new way of being, and advancedthan forcing myself to stay up all night for
states of consciousness I had something to aspiremeditation - however, at this stage, regular,
to. It was a wonderful high...and kept me hungryconsistent and sustainable practice is essential.
for more and more understanding.In the previous steps, I have learned that force
However, along with the mental exhilaration, oneand doing things for the wrong reasons does not
of the biggest pitfalls I personally experienced waslead to successful results. I have also learned that
wrongly assuming that knowing was the same asunderstanding life holistically, taking care of my
being. Knowledge was only the first step on mybody, businesses, relationships and interests allows
journey. Unbeknownst to my naive awareness,the whole system of life to function smoothly.
having knowledge didn't mean I had imbibed orTo be sustainably moving forward we have to
embodied any of the concepts I had becomeaccount for all aspects of life, not ONLY the
aware of intellectually at all! In fact, looking backspiritual aspect.
knowledge at best serves as a map.Sadly, again, a lot of people somehow ignore
Caution: the map is NOT the territory!every other aspect of their life except the
One of my biggest and most severe pitfalls onspiritual part, and therefore those other aspects
the journey was assuming the map is theend up sabotaging their ability to do their spiritual
territory. Just looking at a map, I had no real ideapractice. How many spiritual people do you know
what I was going to experience until I got there inwho are broke, ill, or totally out of balance in one
person - but unconsciously, I had some strangeor another area of their lives?
idea that I was there just because I had seenLike many things in life, the spiritual path is often
where I wanted to go! It's amazing how easy it iscounter-intuitive. Therefore, approaching the path
to be in this trap.from the point of view of a gentle gradual
In my case it wasn't until about two years intoupgrade tends to inspire rapid progress. On the
my spiritual practice that I realized at last thatother hand, the forced 100m-sprint mentality
everything I thought I had attained (intellectually)tends to lead to burn-out, punctured progress and
was all in my head and had neither deeplyhopelessness.
reached my heart nor my life. Seeing this clearlyOnce we are steady in our progress, once we
hurt my 'spiritual ego' but this wisdom and newlydeeply feel we are ascending in our level
gained humility combined, allowed me to progressconsciousness, once things have become stable
to the second step.and meaningful, then we are ready for the final
STEP 2 - Acceptancestep.
Once I recognized that the map is NOT theSTEP 5 - Coming home
territory, I moved slowly to acceptance of whereThe final step is to abandon the idea that there
I actually was, right there and then.are any steps at all. To recognize that the person
Stop for a moment: Do you know where you arewe consider to be on a spiritual journey is not real
on your path right now? How do you know?and giving up the quest for enlightenment
In my case, during the first step ofaltogether knowing who you are and where you
comprehending high ideals and principles, I was ledcome from.
to appreciate the possibilities life held. The secondThis step is by far the most beautiful. I have
step in many ways is equivalent to the firstfound that as I let go, and find myself in this
physical step forward. Acceptance means to trulybeautiful place of constant and endless profound
acknowledge in a deeply grounded way where Ipeace, everything makes total sense and I realize
am right now. If I'm on the very first step, I needthere is no person, no theories and no spiritual
to accept I am on the first step. If I'm on thepath, there is just I, the soul, a beautiful being of
10th step I need to accept I'm on the 10th step.the light witnessing the wonder of life unfolding in
If I'm nowhere near the staircase and I don'tits magnificence.
even know where I am at all - I need to accept IAt this point in the journey we see the perfection
have no idea where I am at all! It's OK.of each moment and the beauty that was there
This again is a humbling process that enables us toall along. At this point we realize that all
make realistic shifts in our practical, grounded inidentification with the body, with the person in the
day-to-day life in order to move forward rathermirror and with all the stories was just part of a
than being deluded and hallucinating we arewonderful game: it was all good and we can see
somewhere else. Sadly, just like me, it seems alife from a place of sweet amusement.
lot of spiritual aspirants have common blindnessWonderful, sweet and benevolent life - I am
and lack of acceptance of where they are atamazed!
right now. Why?Having moved through the steps gracefully, this
I feel the reason for this spiritual blindness isfinal step is only seconds away and even if we
because when we aspire to being on thecontinue to chop wood and carry water, we do
hundredth step and we have read all about theso with joy and we are at peace with ourselves
final step, it is hard for us to accept that we areand our world.
maybe on the first or second step! It seems soAt last we have come home...
far away and we don't like it. We want it to beEach of us will have our own unique experience of
easy - like fast food or turning on a light.life. I wish you well on your personal wonderful
We are impatient beings. Our ego is lazy; ourjourney and hope these simple words may inspire
spiritual ego is inflated with 'higher than thou'you on a graceful, loving adventure into new
notions. It's hard to accept our weaknesses andlevels of wonder.
see things as they are - rather than as WE are -Please don't try too hard. Learn to love yourself
or we would like them to be.as you are, knowing that you are always a
Even if we don't admit it to ourselves, deep downwonderful, beautiful being no matter what's going
we have a knowing about where we are.on and your home is always a thought away.
Because of this subtle knowing, the vast gapWhat do you think? Do these steps resonate with
between the second step and hundredth stepyou? Have you experienced "skipping" steps -
often creates psychic, emotional wounds in ourwhat did you learn? Which step feels the most
hearts leaving so many of us in a state ofdifficult and why? How do you honor your spiritual
depression, unworthiness, anxiety andpractice in balance with other elements of your
hopelessness. It hurts to be so far away fromlife? I'd love to hear any thoughts or feelings you
the goal - and this spiritual despair is the result ofhave about your own spiritual path. You are
a lack of acceptance of ourselves and the depthinvited to share a comment below.
of the spiritual journey.And as a final note, here is the most powerful
The Power of Acceptance: After much denial andpiece I was ever given:
fantasy about where I was on my journey, at"Try to enjoy every part of your journey, no
last (after a good beating and humbling process) Imatter if its pain or pleasure, enjoy it ALL.
deeply accepted that in fact I do have all kinds of