Kundalini and 'Going where we're supposed to go'

In the early 90's I had a spontaneous Kundalinimeditation and entered a period that I can only
Awakening after a near death experience, which Idescribe as a mental hell. I later learned that even
wrote about in a different article. Here's whatthen I was balancing out my light and dark sides
happened next.(but that's a new posting).
After I got out of the hospital after my injury,After a few months of this I finally realized that
and even during my stay there, I felt that I wasthe best way to deal with all this was to *quit
extremely different. At the time I accounted it totrying to deal with it and JUST ACCEPT IT*.
just being glad to still be alive, and for over aOnce I began relaxing into myself and wasn't
decade I never thought anything more about it.fighting the changes as much, I began to really
Yet the fact was that I did feel extremelyfeel a deep connection to the other energy
different and I felt driven to pursue meditationaround me.
and other avenues that I'd always had a vagueCities like Denver drove me nuts, and a casual
interest in, but never really pursued.drive through the mountains (my buddy Jeff called
Now it was an imperative, so I began readingthem 'medicine drives') would turn into an hours
everything I could find. Unfortunately I wasn'tlong meditation as I could feel the energy of all
finding much that was useful. It was about a yearthe trees and the world around me as I passed
later that I discovered "Pathnotes of an Americanthrough.
Ninja Master" by Dr. Glenn Morris.It was still a time of healing and I carried around a
It was the first I'd ever heard of kundalini, Reiki,damaged feeling that was gradually lessening as I
Chi Kung and Therapeutic Touch. Within a fewbecame more relaxed.
days I discovered a Chi Kung class near where IAt the time I was living in an old RV and just
lived in Ft. Lauderdale and was able to bartertraveling around. I went back to Albuquerque for
some dreamcatchers and other odds and endsthe winter and, even though things were still hard,
for some classes.I was learning to feel better.
My teacher there was also a Reiki Master, so heThen one day in February I suddenly realized that
introduced me to Reiki also.I was still working against myself.
Over the next decade I floundered around (or soI made a silent affirmation that I would quit
I thought) and worked a wide variety of jobs andworking so hard at this, and that I was just going
studied a strange variety of classes in school, asto relax, have fun and enjoy each moment and
well as spent a large amount of time out in thesee where I was supposed to go next.
mountains or hiding out in the desert and justA couple of days later I got a message from Jeff
communing and doing various types of energythat Dr. Glenn Morris (whom I'd had a chance to
work.finally meet at a metaphysical fair the previous
A couple of years ago while living up in GlenwoodOctober) wanted me to come up for a weekend
Springs, CO I was again drawn to get deeper intoand assist with the booth at another metaphysical
my energy work, and entered a period of intensefair.
yoga, Reiki, chi kung and meditation.So back I came to Denver, and a weekend of
One night while meditating I had a vision of a lotusvolunteer work turned into a temporary
flower, but the vision included the flower, thepartnership in a nonprofit and my helping with
stem and the roots.several of his kundalini awakening seminars.
The meaning was instantly obvious and I easilyMy training with Glenn opened up a vast world of
connected my energy and felt a rush up mynew experiences and showed me that so many
spine and out through the top of my head.parts of my life actually made sense, and opened
Over the next few months I went through athe way for the healing and growth that I so
period that I can only describe as a karmicbadly needed.
clean-out.Along the way I remembered that every time I
Any unresolved issue that I didn't properly dealhad a problem or needed some direction I could
with would keep popping up over and over until Ijust relax and affirm to go wherever I was
dealt with it calmly and from my center.supposed to.
I had my drivers license revoked twice (during aThe lesson for me was to have a little faith, and
period when I was just being hired by UPS, blewthat having faith will work only if you commit to it
the engines on 3 vehicles and had a torturedand then let it happen.
series of bureaucratic battles.Even now I continue to affirm that I'll go
I had strange energy surges as my bodywherever I'm supposed to go and do whatever it
re-wired itself and had energy releases that sentis that I'm supposed to do, and so far I've
me to massage therapists and other ReikiALWAYS had the guidance I needed within a
practitioners to have cleaned out.couple of days.
Some of this still happens, and probably alwaysI hope this helps some of you who may be
will.struggling with some aspects of this. This is
I also went through a period of balancing myobviously an ongoing process that's moving into
chakras, and I can look back at my life in variousit's second decade and probably will never be
periods and see what chakra I was in.'finished', but at least I'm learning to enjoy the ride
After a few months I started trying to get awayand go where I'm supposed to.
from it all. I stopped doing my yoga and