The Healing Journey

My life has been in such an incredible mode ofwith love, I began to feel the lightness of being. It
shifting and changing; at times it feels like the onlyfelt like a release was taking place each time I
constant thing occurring is change. Why is thissurrendered. I started to experience energetic
happening? Why is there such a great need toshifts occurring every few days.
shift so rapidly? And how do I stay on top of allThen came the deluge of emotions and erratic
this change?thoughts. The masters tell me that this is one of
I am very grateful for the gift of Surrender. Ithe stages in the process of releasing. Mind you
think, in fact I know that without this gift, stayingthis was a very uncomfortable stage. Great
sane and balanced energetically would be verysadness, anger, frustration, self-pity and guilt
challenging. There have been days where nothingstarted surfacing to be released. There were
has made any sense, days where I have feltmany times and there are still times where I lose
overwhelmed by the lack of financial flow, daysthe plot and begin to process the emotions or
where life’s heaviness has been just toothoughts that have surfaced to be released. Or
much to bear, days where my self-judgment ofworse yet, I go into the emotions and start
not being good enough brought on a great depthcreating more of it.
of sadness. On the flip side there have been daysWith a gentle nudge from the divine, I see what I
where I have felt incredible peace and bliss, wheream doing and surrender the emotion. With the
there has been a feeling of oneness andsurrender come the release and the lightness. A
unconditional love, days of lightness and joy, daysfeeling of bliss and love now follows the lightness.
of experiencing deep compassion for the heart ofThis constant state of releasing on the internal
humanity.has to see its corresponding change on the
Learning to surrender on my heavy days hasexternal. Now the challenge seems to be to stay
been a journey in itself! In the beginning Ion top of all the external changes. I have to keep
didn’t feel very much lightness afterreminding myself to stay focused on surrendering
surrendering all the emotions and thoughts thatand releasing as the external changes occur and
are inconsistent with the feeling of unconditionalto trust that the solutions will present themselves
love. I am grateful for the gentle but consistentto me.
reminders by the masters to keep surrenderingThe masters say, "Be still and allow all things to
regardless. As I have been consistent withcome to you." I believe this stage too will be a
surrendering all emotions and thoughts inconsistentgreat journey!